Panic attack

Jealousy is something foreign to me, but I can't help but feel threatened when I've beem someasily replaceable my whole life. Hearing people at work making plans and I just panic as of they are taking my place and I cant calm down

Emoooooooooooo quote timeee

Her dreams are cold without your goodnight,
but her warm salty tears help turn out the lights.

Have you ever had

one of those days, where you just are fed up with all the little annoyances of life, like you just want to end it so you don't have to deal with the minor inconviences? I am right now, and everything is magnified I feel like I should just will myself to die right here. I'm going to make it through the day, but seriously I wish I don't

totally obvious its a random rant

I WANT TO FIND A POETRY CAMP =_= SPENDING AN ENTIRE SUMMER WORKING ON MY WRITING WOULD BE A DREAM COME TRUE, however FREAKING Michigan isn't cool enough to have anything remotly close ><

Random rant- who even cares.

I really dislike that freaking even trying to printing a paper in my house causes fighting or snotty attitudes, and overall discomfort. Like now for example, I need to print a script for my english assignment (mind you I'm the only one with the file saved)  So I attempted to print it on the only available printer in my house ( which just-so happens to be attached to my mothers laptop) I tried to print the document quickly to avoid any conflict between my mom and I but the computer was resiliant and told me "printer was offline" So I asked my mom and she got really annoyed and told me to move before I screw it up anymore ( Did I mention the only time I even look at her laptop is when I need to print something, which consists of yahoo, word, print.) A normal person would be able to let this go, however me (being the big blubbering infant I am) am sitting in my bedroom balling my eyes out paperless and desparate, I offered to just hand write it  which just made things worse. It happens with everything pretty much- If we go somewhere or if I ask for help on my homework  it turns into this big yelling at Emily fest because its my fault for trying to learn. I guess I'm just a complaining cushoned teenager but if this is what real life is life forget that I'd rather be dead.

Random rant (number I don't care)

I got second place for my poetry today, a 500 dollar scholarship to any school of my choice. Valley-City State University, HERE I COME : D !

Random rant #5

Today was the talent show! My friend and I pretty much ran most of the thing, however we could never had done so without the rest of the club and our emcees, or our supervisor :). Tomorr-well I guess today, I will be recieving a scholarship for my poetry : D which is funny because my poetry sucks pretty much :/